is it pain when......

why this always happen to me..when i star to love someone..the love will go make my heart bleed..always like that..

why..i also got feeling right...

i heat love..heat couple..can i heat guy??

emmmmmmmmmmm mama how come be like that...

confusing me..make me feel like i'm a doll that use as toy..

is it me now..how come like that..

i need love to happy,to survive life..

but what i get..heart bleed again again and again..

thank to my bee that always be my side..AMIRUL..

as TIANG

2 weeks is operation theater..like TIANG for 8 hours per/day..like crazy monkey right..just see doctor do the operation..transfer patient just my work..so bored..

the sweet memories when DOCTOR say nurul u so cute,like baby face..he pinch my cheek..sweet right like father and daughter..suddenly i missed my dad..others doctor call me "my daughter"..them treat is like their child but some staff treat us like enemy..should be like that..heat it..

thank you to rekha,siva,louis,DR YONG,DR TAN,kak jenny,kak ramu,kak jun,kak fatihah,kak fadhilah,steven,aunty amoi and to all satff in OT TSH..hope to came back there..hehehehe..

awak tau tak...

sejak 27/9/2010...awak pergi jauh dari saya..awk de banyak tournement rugby..nak tak nak saya kene terima an awak..walau sedey camney pown sy tetep tak leh halang awak tok pergi..tu yang awak minat kan..emmm arini awak gi bali lak..seminggu kat sne..emmm jauhnye laaa awak gi..tinggal saye sorg2 kat sini..sebulan gak la tak jumpe awak nanti..awak balik nanti saya da start keje shift balik..memang tak dapat jumpe laaa an.

saya harap awak jage diri kat sane..men game tu leklok..jgn sampai patah gigi lak..

jangan main hujan ea..saya tahu awak suke sangat men hujan kan..saya harap awak tak lupe saye kat sini..i will miss u sayang..miss u so much..

mama,your daughter so stress right now..

is it i'm the prisoner..that my day,my off day..y should stay in this stupid prison..i'm not kids that need care like stupid care..i know what i done..i'm not kids laaaaaaaaaa..

please let me do what i want..

my mom and dad never treat me like prisoner..so who are u to treat me like this..

2 month without sleepingout pass...shit!!!!

u all are the best ACTRESS..infront LGM staf so kindly to us..at the back u all i do know how to say it..

dear god,help us to face it..